Day 7: A Setback

Last night, some of my family came to town to see The Boxtrolls with us. You should see this movie. On Friday night, I had a little breakdown, because this was really the first social interaction we were scheduled to have since we started the fast, and I was upset that we couldn't join my family for dinner. Plus, popcorn is such an integral part of the movie experience for me, I felt overwhelmed.

I planned to just drink juice before, have a drink in the theater and suck it up. But then I ran out of time getting ready and didn't have enough time to have a juice. I hadn't had anything all day, and I was so hungry. My blood sugar was low, and I was feeling seriously not great, so I made the decision to eat real food.

I fell off the wagon and had a grilled chicken Caesar wrap at the theater (with no dressing and no nuts). It totaled 710 calories. So, I'm sorry if you are disappointed in me, but you know, life still has to happen, and I know that if I didn't eat something during the movie, that I would have come home, dropped the whole thing and binged on Eggo waffles because I allowed myself to get overwhelmed. I figure that by eating something semi-reasonable, I avoided collapsing and quitting completely.

The fast was broken. But just for one day. I'm back on the wagon now. I don't know if I'll be able to keep this up for 60 days. At some point, I may need to opt for a small, healthy meal at lunch (a few hundred calories) and have juice for other meals and snacks. In 6 days, I have not hit 1000 calories a single time, in a day (even with the wrap). Most days I've been well under 900, and that's just not a realistic amount of calories to maintain long term. I haven't decided yet, but I don't think that I can drink enough juice to get enough calories, because with the water I'm also drinking, I feel sort of waterlogged all the time. I don't know. I feel better having eaten something, and like I can move forward.

I also chopped a chunk of my index fingertip off last night, while I was trying to peel a lime, so typing is difficult. Excuse any typos that I may have missed!

The good news: I got on a scale today and have lost 5 pounds. We also ordered a scale, which I think will be here on Tuesday.
xo